the main reason is, because I tried in the beginning with a big loan/share offers but I get negative trust from this and that`s why I need to collect my trust with small loans.
Not because of the need of the small amounts, but I think everybody knows the reason I need a big loan.
IMO, you clearly want a big loan because you want to run away with the proceeds from the loan.
You are not offering anything of any value as collateral. It should be clear to anyone viewing that you have zero intention of paying whoever (if anyone) you get this loan from.