I do want to be friends.  

First step is for you to admit/understand you are lying about me - denial is not healthy.  I can't count how many people that have told you I'm not protected by staff nor am I part of an inner circle.  Your continued stating that I am in a lie - even if you can't see it.

Second step is to stop lying about me.  You'll be surprised that this will be the easy step.  Good luck!