Since about January 2014 I didn't find myself doing this.
It's just a natural impulse, I don't do it consciously, and I'm wondering if deep down my brain is finally hopeful again.
Take that for speculation

You are not the only one here ,buddy. We are all having that obsession with bitcoin. I do it all the time. I check for the btc price all throughout the day , and I'm very hopeful it goes up. I check it like I check my messages. haha
