Lobotomy also leads to the "completion of your life"... works just like faith.
Are you sure you don't want to join ISIL or any other group of crackpots spreading "Godly love and faith" on Earth? Because statements like "atheists doesn't deserve to live" are way inline with those "love spreaders".
You are just afraid to not able to Love.
Don't take the fault on me if your Faith is broken, take the fault on yourself.