This is the way I look at it: you can play with your ego, by learning chords, taking lessons, constructing a song, etc. Or you can play with your soul, play in the moment by feeling the energy. When you play with your soul, you are basically channeling the universe's energy (god) through you and into music.
When you play, you must be channelling the part of the universe that is a methane swamp on some far away planet, or a Mexico City garbage dump. Your "music" is shit. Perhaps you telling us that it is literally excrement, and you are channelling this shit through your guitar.
You have literally no guitar playing skill or any evidence of talent. Everyone has to start somewhere, but you are so utterly, utterly deluded about your own abilities. Unless you plan to corner a lucrative market in people paying you to be quiet, I think it will take many years of practice before you will ever earn a single cent from your guitar. And that is if you get over your aversion to actually learning how to play.
You cannot play guitar. You will not be a professional musician anytime soon. Anyone can see that. Everyone is telling you that. Why are you so deluded? I think you are either a dumb fuck or you are mentally ill.
If you actually want to make a success out of your life, you need to snap out of these insane, narcissistic delusions of grandeur. Anyone can see that you don't possess even a fraction of the skills, talent and intelligence that you claim. What do you think will happen to you if you carry on the path that you are going, instead of learning actual skills for real? It's funny that you talk about ego in such negative terms when your own ego is so preposterously inflated.