You MUST turn your life around to be saved. The more you try, the more you find that you can't do it 100% as is required. Meditating on the law shows you that you can't keep the law. Even if you could, you won't.
This is not the main conclusion that one gets after meditating upon the law.
So, because you cannot do everything all at once, you may as well stop meditating? You may as well stop trying and "sit back" to wait for your "savior"?
Now, consider that slothfulness is a sin! You need to do work to get
anywhere, and God's kingdom is no different. You need to actually go out and show that love to thy neighbor, you can't just "sit there"!
"And this is the judgment: the light has come into the world, and people loved the darkness rather than the light
because their works were evil. For
everyone who does wicked things hates the light and does not come to the light,
lest his works should be exposed. But whoever does what is true comes to the light, so that it may be
clearly seen that his works have been carried out in God." (John 3:19-21, bold added)
Since you don't keep the law, you are damned. The next step is to find the way to be saved, the gift of God through faith in Jesus Christ His son.
You say that you are damned unless you are saved by Jesus.
Jesus simply does not say that those who do not believe in him will go to hell (see above, my chat with MMH).