Naturally that this is the problem. Everything born from inside. But even the beautiful life born from inside. Do a good search within you and I'm convinced that if you want, you will find it. Then put it in this thread and read it every time you don't feel peaceful. That thing that you will put here will be read and developed by your friends of this thread and you will read more and more beautiful things. In this way the life will become every day more beautiful. 
I do agree with you, and everyday I see bullish people are optimistic and permabulls like me as well.
But I dunno my friend, I've a strange feeling inside of me that is letting me not to feel happy and enough confident.