I aim to be a socialist but living in a capitalist world requires me to make money to survive.
Can you explain what this means? I've tried to figure it out but every possible interpretation I can think of is either incoherent or malicious.
I agree it is incoherent and malicious.
It's disheartening to want to be something you can never be and to have to do things that are against your ideals.
I've got this addiction to life and it makes me do terrible things.