When you act like you don't want the abilities of Godness, you are essentially saying that you would rather be an animal.
God isn't going to give us baby gods unlimited power and strength...
"Abilities of Godness"? WTF are you smoking? God doesn't grant you abilities... he doesn't even answer your prayers!
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Studies_on_intercessory_prayerMake your choice. Take your pick. Move into Godness with God the way He did it, or move into self-destruction. You have no other choice, no matter how you much grumble about it.
What makes you think that you either worship Santa/God or you are pure evil? Where would you get that idea, and why would you ever believe it?
Atheists tend to be the most moral people in a society. Take a look at Sweden, Norway, Denmark, etc... Take a look at the US prison population, 0.2% atheist... 99% Christian...
Atheists are the reason slavery is illegal, and gays can get married! If Christians had their way, biblical law would prevail, and we would all be homophobic slave owners...
Have you even read the bible?