Yesterday:
I ate hamburgers (beef) for the first time in several weeks today and immediately it made me fall asleep. Then I felt strong tonight when I woke up from that afternoon nap, yet a different sort of more intense pain in my lower abdomen area. Strange change to feel stronger yet more pain. I ran and felt very strong through the run yet more painful in my gut. So something is changing or going on down there that is new. I don't know if that is a sign of a cure coming or just more health bullshit ahead. Sigh.
Today:
Feeling damn good right now! Wish I could feel like this all the time.

The
Energizer Bunny dopamine crazed dude:
Edit: smooth is more balanced/grounded/steady than me. I am more of a high/low personality, which typically correlates with a high degree of creativity and artistic talent.
Edit: ground beef (w/egg and Worcestershire sauce), mozarella cheese, tomato, lettuce, and (no high fructose corn syrup) Heinz ketchup sandwiches on whole wheat French bread again tonight! I am so tired of eating a monotonous strict diet of tuna soup, eggs, oatmeal, raw carrots, and steamed greens. No ill effects from eating this yesterday. If I can eat the food I like again, I can gain back some of my strength. I need that brain food.
Let's go! do
strange things! in some far away land in
summertime dreams! where the
pictures come back from that dead place of suffering and emptiness where they had gone.
Edit#2:
the Internet is awesome! It has been extremely depressing for me the past few years to see the Internet become such an amazing creative resource and not being able to fully enjoy it!
I Feel Good!!! (so good)