... after cashing out in mid-600s, on the way up.

Come on whore, we both know thats bullshit. And I did ask you for an honest reply.
As a matter of interest, how many accounts do you use to troll through. Its kind of fascinating TBH, all this personality disordered adolescent craving for attention - in the way that looking at an animal pickled in a jar is fascinating, you understand.

Help me to understand, whore.
I'll ask you again. How much are you down ?
The first step is admitting it to yourself. You can't change whats past, pettle - but in acknowledging it you might stand a chance of moving forward.