OP went through same fate as majority of emotional players do.It is common fate to see someone making decent money at start and then just for keep playing in thought of bankrupt the house by winning all available money.This behavior of not having stop 99% takes everyone to an epic end where along with winning amount initial goes too.It hurts much because once you win money belongs to you.I can understand through what person goes.
Right, playing dice with emotions will end up in a loss as always.
You need to play dice without emotions to win something huge, you need to play like a star without thinking how much you are losing, as only crazy people are able to make bitcoins with gambling.