Good story to share OP, I did suffered a lot in Gambling too, and I am still finding a way to quit...
Think for your family, your parents, your loved ones, your wife or kids < this always do when I lost, but won't be happened when you are gambling especially when you are winning....

the last sentence of op story should make you realized , by gambling you have a possibility to ruin your life in young age, frustated and do suicide. i wish you guys didn't too serious in gambling.