Cause you still have big ego for gambling, you always play then things wanna big some a jackpot. addicted cause you have some big a bad habbits for your life. anythings over of line will be make it worse, so stay away for gambling and your life will be better. goodluck buddy 
While i almost understood your stand, its true. I got out from gambling before i get to sink deeper in to it that i have to sell thing just so i can feed my craving to bet and win bigger amounts. bigger wining cost big bets as well and big bets lose bigger amounts.