Your insanity will be naturally solved.

You'll become 50, 60, probably 70 and 80, with every day you become weaker and weaker and then on one day your gone.

I have seen a lot of elderly people dying and crying in their last days because they regretted what they have done in their life even if they have beaten their kids.

Your clock is ticking.

Einstein was right when he said: "Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the universe."

Your hate is clearly a signal of helplessness and attention seeking and you can continue to loose lifetime.

Other people enjoy reading a book, make party in a club or eat with their family.

No one in this thread is your slave and no one in this thread will do what you want to help you to compensate your personal problems.

Get help or not.