I do gamble and I know that there is no strategy to it therefore when I gamble, I consider anyhing that i put on the site as my loss therefore Im cool actually if I lose and If I win then that would be much better. I do gamble to win however and I just go with the majority of my bankroll, it is either I win or lose and has nothing to do with mood
I think you create these illusions to convince yourself that it's okay for you to lose all those money but when you sum it up, you would actually regret it. It's never okay to lose your money for something so stupid. You create these illusions so you wouldn't feel that bad after losing. If I were you, I would go deeper and analyze the what's happening to me. Ask yourself what is the actual reason why you gamble. I think you're just gambling for the sake of feeding your addiction and nothing else.