I am an agnostic and for me sometimes God does not exist because the bible is so contradicting.
Since you are
that mixed up, no wonder the Bible seems contradictory to you.

Different parts of the Bible were written by different Bronze Age people. Some were vengeful and wanted to kill babies of their enemies and eat them, others were more concerned with the type of clothing they were wearing. At least one writer had a fight with another man and his wife touched other's guy genitals so he wrote this scenario in the Bible and cut off her hand.
What Bible gives you is an insight into Bronze Age minds, how they lived and survived.
To use any of it as a source of guide is just irresponsible. Unless of course if you think slavery and stoning of people is a good idea.
Killing gays or children who disobey their parents will get you a life sentence whether your God likes or not.
Why to discuss the god, faith in God, its existence, why recall such nasty things. But still need to make discounts on that, there are exceptions and accidents. Besides, God more loves the sinners of the week of the righteous. The righteous do not need to be guided, but the offender needs to.