Fellow CSGO player here, I was DMG when I played. Hmm, yours sounds kinda like an unhealthy addiction, but I think it will pass with time. I used to be passionate about CS too and I've played since the days of 1.5, but now I don't really feel it as something vital to my life. I just play once or twice a week, only if somebody asks me to. I think you'll get bored with it too eventually.

You can also try to replace that addiction of yours with something more healthy, like getting addicted to making money for example.