so meaning the reason why im not able to see my balance in mew yesterday beacause of too much investment entering in bancor. 
Did you add BNT as a custom token? If you did and didn't see any balance (assuming there is supposed to be a balance), it is because the node(s) you used at MEW to access the ETH network were down or out of action at the time.
no I didnt add it because my tx got cancelled.
at first I couldnt get a response on the MEW node so changed the node to etherscan.io at the 1 hour marker
that went through but disappeared then showed up about 10 minutes later as pending
by about the 2 hour marker it just cancelled the tx and the eth was returned to my MEW,
now the tx says it doesnt exist
though my MEW says it was a failed tx to the Bancorcrowdsale and the reason given in tx is "cancelled"