You deserve it because you are effectively lending them your money based on the promise that they will be able to repay it at some point or that you can sell your debt on an open market. ...
From this point I do not deserve it, because they already repayed me
In that case, I'll be happy to take your shares from you.
Of course you deserve it; the repayment isn't a 1:1 thing, it is a repayment based on the risk you took when you (possibly) bought into the IPO. Getting your money back 1:1 is pointless, nobody wants to buy ฿1 for ฿1 sometime in the future. That's not investment, that's an interest free loan.
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