Now the question is: what the fuck do i do now with my money.
never give up and always learn is the best option to do, but you give up to trading now, just hold your bitcoin for long term investment
With his situation it's better to take some vacation and leave trading alone. If you can't stop your losses and you can't recover it then, what will be the best solution? To stop. No other words, you did the right thing and maybe OP did grew already his remaining bitcoins as the price was increased more than twice up to now.