You seriously need mental help or somebody to talk to, here let me help;

https://turn2me.org/onlinecounselling/details?gclid=EAIaIQobChMI7LXjhK_P1gIVSI0bCh2BgQBmEAAYAiAAEgLcqPD_BwE

https://www.samaritans.org/

https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/suicidal-feelings/?gclid=EAIaIQobChMIzIbfsK_P1gIVhbftCh0opQeREAAYAiAAEgK0BfD_BwE#.WdDYLmhSyUk

https://www.mentalhealth.org.uk/publications/gp-visit-guide

http://www.sane.org.uk/?gclid=EAIaIQobChMIoYfi5K_P1gIVJRbTCh27kASAEAAYASAAEgJ6hvD_BwE

There is a growing number of people who are affected by mental health issues. In 1990, 416 million people suffered from mental health disorders such as depression, or anxiety worldwide - these numbers rose to 615 million in 2013 (World Health Organisation, 2016).

We know you are cryptodevil, you are not very clever at hiding that fact, same structure of posts, online when he is offline, similar post time patterns, same use of latin phrases such as reductio ad absurdum, ad hominem and the same obsession with fallacies.  

I would implore you seek out your GP, and discuss your problems, split personality disorder can be just as frightening to those it directly affects.

do not suffer in silence, please get some help.

I genuinely fear for the safety of yourself, and those around you at home.