my life is painful so in that particularly how can i say one thing. in my childhood to i have to facing problems so my life is very complicated to me. up to now i have no happy in my life. i'm trying to clear my problems. but they are very irritating to me. so i want to get some peace of mind in my life. so now i'm trying to change my life style. and spending more time in mediation for peace of mind. so now i feel little better.