Dude just go start a gofund me website and put the link here.

I think you will get some donations from the ones who really want to help you get out of this rut.
But you just got to say you won't just use the money you get from people's generosity back to this devil's site who made you lose this much and your reason to life to live.
Maybe have the btc address pointed to someone in escrow so everyone knows you have not touched it and sent to your bank account instead of bitcoin where it is not in your control to waste it gambling thus ending your life.