The important matter should be your life and taking that high risk for a 50/50 decision is not suicidal but stupidity. In due time researching a poison in Internet is much easier than mining a cryptocurrency because it is. Most have tried and lot of them succeed not alone but corporate. This is the best and wisest thing to do make a group who have the same aggressive towards mining that you do. In that way you can sleep at night after a failure and if you succeed you know how to do it on your own now.