And just end it all?
Suicide recently became the #1 cause of unnatural death, so no, you are not alone.
This world is designed to pigeon-hole you into a life of meaningless repetition and debt-slavery. You're meant to be a cog in the machine and barely get by paying the mortgage/taxes. Art and pursuing your passion can't fulfill this requirement, and therefore such activities tend to be a pipe dream for almost everyone.
How I cope?
1. Live in the ghetto. It really isn't bad. Get over your preconceptions.
2. Make your home your own.
3. Learn skill sets, buy or share equipment.
4. Research fun DIY projects online.