I've decided not to say anything about your plan to suicide.
But, I'm glad you didn't make it, still alive and keep your spirit to fight for your life.
I assume gambling isn't a good way to get instant money, if you decide to do so, there are some legit gambling sites which better than 1xbit always has same reasons to cancel customers winnings, as your case isn't the first one. Fortunately you still get your initial capital 14 eth. About your debts, hopefully people will intrigue to donate if you provide more information about the reason why you got into this problem in the first place.