I'm glad you finally realized there's some worth spending time on. If you consider leading XVP as a waste of energy, then you should appreciate the effort of those who gave their time and resources to try steer the wheel. A voluntary project usually faces many challenges. Only a vibrant and resolute community can deal with that. You cannot spend for everyone without expecting anything in return. And when it's clear you won't get anything, you either stay or leave. But if leaving will cost everyone and your head will still be demanded after all, then it's a shitty situation.