i dont know your level of theological understanding so i wouldnt ask anything that may look like am prejudicing. First of all what you need to understand God as within you, not sitting on a high mountain in the skies. Of course the highest mountain everest pierce in the skies but people have been on top and God aint there so has many space projects and studies indicated he is in none of the spaces close to us, so the best way you can know God is to know yourself and your neighbours. Try being at peace with all and dont harm yourself. Thank you