oh my fucking god, i swear on my mothers grave that i am NOT lying. Like i said before man if i asked my cousins, not only would they be suspicious of me thinking that i have suicidal thoughts, but they would ask me where the hell am i buying these pills from? Then everyone would find out and think im some kind of drug addicted druggie buying from an online black market. It would just be a disaster. I can just imagine it now, rehab and all that shit when i don't even need it. My family are totally against the idea of pills, but for me no because it helps me.