Dude, I am sorry that you lost but to be honest, we all have lost at one point. In 2014 I lost thousands and not just value, I mean hard cash that I i spent on getting cryto. Guy took my money and ran. I spent months building a relationship with him and then bam! I swore I would spend every last minute trying to find that jerk.  I spent weeks and months with a pit in my stomach because of it. I almost lost my family because of it. Then one day I realized I was throwing my life away and wasting it trying to get justice and vengeance. Time is more precious than any amount you lost...Stop throwing away your priceless time and figure a way out of this...If you made it this far with crypto I know you will be fine.