I feel you brother. I am also is suffering from my lose trades that got me a lot more emotional. I suggest that you keep that experience with you and try to go other place to unwind. You can do much more better things for you know what it takes to lose. We might commit mistakes, but this must not be the reason for us to quit. Passion? It's really hard to push a thing that you just recentlymessed up and make that as your passion. Passion is developed, not forced. "Winning makes you happy, but mistakes makes you WISER". Cheer up man, you're still alive and I bet you have the knowledge to get back up. Take a break, have a kitkat.