Id be dead by then probably.
Well best of luck to ya! I'd suggest reaching out to someone before you kill yourself though. There is someone out there who cares about you, but your school or home would probably be a better place to find them. This is not the place for it.
Edit:
Same guy?
https://bitcointalk.org/index.php?topic=233456.0I do have thoughts but I always felt like this everyday. Every time I ask someone for help nobody cares. I don't know what to do, I can only rely on drugs. It sucks, but it helps. That's why I need this loan. Its important to me.
Do call the suicide hotlines, the Good Samaritans etc, you really need help.