So am I supposed to just believe in something that I will never understand? Even if I knew god existed how would I ever know that what he is doing is the right thing? Why would anyone worship god if we can't even understand if he is good or not? Sure the bible says he is but how would we ever know?
Without knowing it is impossible to believe. Belief at its deepest manifestation is knowing.
You have touched upon perhaps the deepest challenge facing modern man. In a world where as Nietzsche stated "God is dead" how does one know God?
I found it helpful to understand the full implications of Nietzsche's famous quote.
See:
Nietzsche and ChristianityHumanity is no longer in its infancy where we can simply be told what to believe and more or less accept it blindly. We have instead entered a rebellious adolescence where we have the freedom to forge our own beliefs for better or for worse.
It was inevitable that the quest to seek truth born from monotheism and religion would turn on the dogma at its foundation, yet this attack on our cultural roots places us in a very tenuous position.
As pointed out in the video on Nietzsche and Christianity we probably only have three choices.
1) We can embrace one of the many parasitic and extremist ideologies available (See: Communism and Nazism for insight on where this path goes).
2) We can sink into existential nihilism which is
accompanied by its own darkness.
3) We find a way to resurrect God and repair the foundation of our culture.
Personally I find the third choice by far the most compelling.
God is dead, long live God!
But what If I'm looking for the truth rather than something that would make me feel good? Choice number 3 has also a few thousand choices, which god should I chose? Does anyone pick his God based on research or rather indoctrination and luck? That is the problem with religion and gods. Sure it's better to believe in god than believing everything is pointless and nothing matters. I was a nihilist for some time but then I realized that nihilism is also a form of ''religion'' because the only truth is that we simply don't know. We don't know if something happens after death or what the universe really is or why we are here, that's my point of view now and many times I look at the stars and I wonder too if there is something up there but I can't just blindly believe in things.