Research more, take the time you took to take apart my post in pieces for I have no clue what you are wanting to get out of that.  I'm sure if this was a movie, this thread represents you screaming up to the sky "WHYYYYYY" after you lost someone you loved.  I still am overall sorry for your situation.

I assure you I am not jumping into your sadness further with discussing things, and use that energy and direct it at the right people