Just hang in there. I know I shouldn't invalidate what you feel, but you don't have to feel sad. Compared to other Jr. Members, you're lucky that you were able to earn half of the merits that is required for you to rank up. You're halfway there, you just have to be more patient and be more persistent. Earning merits is not impossible and this is proven by you receiving some. So rather than being sad, just continue to do your best. There are more merit sources now so sooner or later you would get what you need to rank up, just make sure that you do your part so that you'll desevlrve bearing merits. If you think you need them right away, then maybe you can join some merit giveaways and contests. Good luck!