Yes, I have high standards for who I give out merit to, and why shouldn't I?  Why should I reward assholes like you who babble and whine, and can't even do so coherently?  And I would hope others do likewise.  That's precisely the reason the merit system exists in the first place.

There's nothing you can do about it except go into an impotent rage-a-thon like this or cry yourself to sleep at night over it.  You decide.