Tell him/her/it i need a good talking to as well. I've been spending a LOT of time on understanding what this reality is and feel like i cant stop until i get some sort of epiphany or understanding on a deeper level. Recently, I've become much more open to the idea of a god-type figure, but due to the vast contradictions of our reality, question weather this force is benevolent or malevolent.
I consider myself a pretty intelligent creature compared to those around me (I'm in the U.S. lol) and I think im trying to intellectualize it too much, but am unsure how to continue gaining knowledge without it being this approach.... I suppose its the path i have to take, BUT I would really like to get some help understanding the more ethereal part of our contradictive reality (I know its polarity, but I still don't understand why we are all such hypocrites in our heads).
Also, what the heck is this ego thing, and why do we have it? Doesnt seem to serve any positive purpose in our society... Have we just advanced past the point of needing one to survive or is it some other sort of negative force? RRRRRRR Ive got alot of questions that have been eating at me for quite some time now... reach out to me if you have a chance. thanks.