I understand that after a life of indoctrination is really hard to snap out of it, I was like this too, god was everything to me but eventually I realized he wasn't answering my prayers, he wasn't really answering anyones prayers, he didn't make much sense when I actually looked into it and I was still a believer and prayed for days and days for him to give me a sign, something to know that he truly exists, nothing happened, god doesn't exist.
Your tummy grumbles. Yo are hungry. It is a request. God hears it and answers with food.
God gave good strength to all kinds of beings (angels) and people. God made them good and free. They invented ways of turning against God. When something bad happens, it is because bad beings are using God's strength for evil. That's why you don't get the good things you ask for sometimes.
But, if you asked God for a sign that He existed, you already had that sign in the faith you had in Him, and the studies you studied about Him. So, what else was He to do? The thing He did for you was to answer your real prayer, which was a prayer asking for proof that He didn't exist, rather than that He did. So, He gave you that, and now you don't believe He exists, even though you know He might exist, because you haven't checked out every corner of the universe to see if God is there or not.
Dark matter in space is what hides our view of God. It's a good thing, too. Because if we saw Him, the overwhelming sight of His surpassing beauty and glory would cause us to die in awed shock.
Speaking of dark matter, here is a video that says what I usually want to say about religion and heaven: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5GjCRWeG_AQ
It's short but straight to the point, enjoy, maybe it changes your mind at least just so slightly.