You yourself couldn't earn more than 9 Merits in 3 months or so, and you are hoping to become a Merit source to reward and help others in this regard. 
Maybe we could understand this better if you could simply say that you have some children (low ranked accounts) to feed and you can't do it like that because you are disabled (not constructive/helpful), and now you are asking for a never-ending donation (Merit Source) to be able to feed them (the accounts) without any hurdles.
I can be wrong, but it just feels like that when someone like you stands up for a position like that. Because if it was that much easy to become a Merit Source, I think there would have been more Merit Sources than the spammers themselves by now.
Maybe we could understand this better if you could simply say that you have some children (low ranked accounts) to feed and you can't do it like that because you are disabled (not constructive/helpful), and now you are asking for a never-ending donation (Merit Source) to be able to feed them (the accounts) without any hurdles.
I can be wrong, but it just feels like that when someone like you stands up for a position like that. Because if it was that much easy to become a Merit Source, I think there would have been more Merit Sources than the spammers themselves by now.
I have what? Look man, I've been here since 2014 and I just want to reward people with Merit when I think they deliver a good contribution. I am not the "poor" man with low rank accounts.