I really appreciate each of your comments, condolences and criticisms.
Personally, Im an emotional wreck. Every time I think about this, i just start shaking. Im NOT suicidal to be clear. Its just really hard to think my financial freedom from this whole fucking rigged system is gone. The whole reason I entered this space was to have control over my destiny. Im helpless to the cosmos. Maybe this is a lesson that I was helpless all along. Please, if youre out there, spare me from my mistakes.