Sort of I guess. It started when I would watch sissy porn and ever since then I fear I might be gay or trans even know I hate feeling this way. FYI I have nothing against gay and transgender people as I don't see anything wrong with it as long as they are happy. I just don't want to be that. I'm scared that it could be possible. The thoughts are there and I have to constantly prove to myself that all of it isn't real and I obsess over it everyday.