Being competitive is one of the traits that I admire but being competitive in such a ridiculous game is what I cannot praise or support at all because I am well aware with the harms of this attitude. You will keep on laying until you don’t come across a win. This will give you inner satisfaction. You might also win a game after losing for few time but that winning would actually be of no good in most of the situations and as per for most of the gamblers' experience. Instead of looking for winning back, I believe it must be a good decision to quit as it will end up all the war at once.