I've personally bought a lot of stuff with Bitcoin, and not sorry for it.

Bought some stuff as well, also not sorry, but you can't help but go: "Wow, that bike I bought is now a 80000$ bike" ^^
This is the path to insanity, I'm struggling with it myself

you are getting it wrong.
that bike was maybe 3000 dollars regular. you bought it with your 2011 coins so it cost you 96 $

don´t punch your calculator keys with figures about what you could have kept. rather be thankful that you had the brains to get into bitcoin at all. be proud !
rather be happy about all those coins you still have.