Listen, hero2w. If you really feel like hurting yourself is a way out, please reconsider.
There are many people who can help you through this difficult time. It's not shameful to ask for help or support!

The lovely people over at this reddit sub forum could help you if you choose to talk to them, and share your problem: http://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/

Also, I don't know where your from but here is a list of suicide hotlines from many countries, you might consider giving a call to the appropriate on: http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html

I wish you the best.