We can hide our habit with crypto. So, I will keep gambling even though it is forbidden to do. But for sure I will do it with very carefull so none able to notice it.
I'd do the same. I don't care about the legality of things only about my own ethics and the repercussions when I get caught. If the punishment isn't severe and it calculates for me to try i will do it. Those laws that forbid you from buying something with your own money are made by normal people like you and me who have their own agenda and we shouldn't blindly follow their lead.
Go ahead and destroy yourself. You are doing the right job. It means that you have no family or you are very careless about your family and of yourself. What do you think that you are doing a great job to break the law of your country? I realized that you havent been punished yet, thats why you are talking like this. No law allows you to buy illegal things with your own money.