If I lose everything I can only blame myself, and I do. Even though I might be depressed I can assure you I am not suicidal in anyway.

I have some good things going for me, but I guess the current crisis with ActM overshadows those things. If this does not work I may never be rich, but I guess that is the way of life.

I was born into a very poor and underprivileged family and I was desperate to escape. I dislike having to work 10-30 hours a week alongside full time study just to survive. The government allowance only really covers the weeks where I am not working so much during exams and everyone I know live like kings with their millionaire parents providing housing and cars. I felt like the underdog and thought that Bitcoin was my solution. To many people it was, but I screwed up this unique chance and have no capability to set things right.

Posting here allows me to feel that I am making a difference, but it's a delusion and now most of my fellow shareholders hate me.