yeah i think ill do as i please and forget about having to kiss ass.  I think the system is nota fair one at least not for me.  Im out or at least im done with trying to kiss up to all these people i can read them like a book half the time anyways.  Its all a game i have to play. everyday all day and it amounts to nothing i dont even know why i bother i havent really achived anything from my efforts i am at the same place i was a year ago and always loose.  Maybe i should just do and say as i please and be happy with everything.  Whatever.