Atlas, You know as well as I do that your life is yours...
But there are better ways to deal with your problems than quitting.
Haters gonna hate. Fuck 'em.
It's not the haters. I just don't feel like playing anymore. I haven't felt like playing more and more often. It's getting hard. I think I can keep going. I can presume I will feel like living soon. I hope.
I'm 22, I had the same hardcore philosopher vibe going at 18 so my advice might be useful. The trick for me was appreciating the small things. Such as when you eat food, to think about how much effort goes into ingredients, how lucky we are compared to people in the past, things like that. Same with taking walks, sun and trees, those simple things which despite their complexity are too easy for intellectuals to dismiss. I believe the trick is to not dismiss them.
Of course it might of just been natural changes in brain chemistry. So I haven't had the chance to test it to confirm, which would involve being really cynical about everything for a few months and seeing if it makes life depressing. But from observing other people I think I'm probably right.