okay,i only want to help

Well, help whatever local board you should be posting in. Your English is atrocious, and I can't even get past this:
I have been be ban ago and I really understand
....which is a load of nonsense, and it made me not even want to read the rest of what you shat out. You're obviously just merit begging, and it's not appreciated. If you say you're just trying to help, you're a liar. You're going on ignore.